A Letter to Pa-Pa
Dear Pa-Pa,
I'm still here walking the path you blessed me with. Can't believe I'm gonna be 25 this year. A lot has changed in this cold world since you passed, but I'm weathering the storm just like you taught me. It seems like the human race has reached it's tipping point and I just wish you were here to guide me, but I know you're watching over me. Mother nature is taking its toll on people all over the globe. Hurricanes, tornadoes, oil spills, earthquakes, you name it. And I know you have your qualms with religion, but it seems like The Book of Revelations is materializing right in front of us. It's almost too much to stomach. I'm beginning to believe that maybe there is a God and this is His way of making humanity pay for its wrongdoings. I've been going through a lot of growing pains over the last two years trying to figure out who I am in this world. I know one day my voice will be heard and my dreams will come true. I enjoy reaping the benefits of growing older and wiser, but sometimes I wish I were a kid again and weren't so keenly aware of how hateful people can be. Sometimes I want to fall in line and exact revenge on those that have done me wrong but I've decided it's better to be as genuine as possible. I still have a chip on my shoulder though. I miss Ireland and am dissapointed we never got a chance to return there together, but I know if your spirit still lingers on you're most likely roaming the homeland. Mims misses you I think, although she never admits it. Her health is really deteriorating so it won't be long until you two are reunited on the other side. Bittersweet of me to say that. We finally have a black President, but he hasn't been as successful as I hoped. Guess it's a sign of the times. Dad and I have been making up for lost time recently and I'm finally burying my ill feelings towards my Mom. I've come to realize that even though we rarely see eye to eye she has sacrificed a lot for me over the years to get me things she never had and for that she deserves my utmost respect. I met a girl I thought I could see as my wife but we abruptly parted ways. Maybe one day I'll see her again and things will be different. I feel guilty about the circumstances of our falling out, but we were both out of line and its been weighing on my conscience for far too long. I have trust issues I need to work on. I wish I was old enough to talk about women with you while you were still alive because me and Dad hardly do. I'm trying to make you proud by becoming clean and sober just like you but it's been difficult. I stopped smoking weed and only drink on occasion, but I'm back to smoking cigarettes. Oh, and I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. It hasn't been easy to deal with, but the ups and downs aren't too bad. I have to take three different meds for it and I can't tell what difference they make, if any. I know you would shake your head at me for this, but I got a tattoo of our family crest on my chest. It's just a reminder of our roots. Anyway, I hope the afterlife is treating you well and even though you've done some things you might not be proud of you deserve a worthwhile reincarnation or a spot in heaven or whatever may be. I'll do my best to carry on tradition.
Love,
Your Grandson
I'm still here walking the path you blessed me with. Can't believe I'm gonna be 25 this year. A lot has changed in this cold world since you passed, but I'm weathering the storm just like you taught me. It seems like the human race has reached it's tipping point and I just wish you were here to guide me, but I know you're watching over me. Mother nature is taking its toll on people all over the globe. Hurricanes, tornadoes, oil spills, earthquakes, you name it. And I know you have your qualms with religion, but it seems like The Book of Revelations is materializing right in front of us. It's almost too much to stomach. I'm beginning to believe that maybe there is a God and this is His way of making humanity pay for its wrongdoings. I've been going through a lot of growing pains over the last two years trying to figure out who I am in this world. I know one day my voice will be heard and my dreams will come true. I enjoy reaping the benefits of growing older and wiser, but sometimes I wish I were a kid again and weren't so keenly aware of how hateful people can be. Sometimes I want to fall in line and exact revenge on those that have done me wrong but I've decided it's better to be as genuine as possible. I still have a chip on my shoulder though. I miss Ireland and am dissapointed we never got a chance to return there together, but I know if your spirit still lingers on you're most likely roaming the homeland. Mims misses you I think, although she never admits it. Her health is really deteriorating so it won't be long until you two are reunited on the other side. Bittersweet of me to say that. We finally have a black President, but he hasn't been as successful as I hoped. Guess it's a sign of the times. Dad and I have been making up for lost time recently and I'm finally burying my ill feelings towards my Mom. I've come to realize that even though we rarely see eye to eye she has sacrificed a lot for me over the years to get me things she never had and for that she deserves my utmost respect. I met a girl I thought I could see as my wife but we abruptly parted ways. Maybe one day I'll see her again and things will be different. I feel guilty about the circumstances of our falling out, but we were both out of line and its been weighing on my conscience for far too long. I have trust issues I need to work on. I wish I was old enough to talk about women with you while you were still alive because me and Dad hardly do. I'm trying to make you proud by becoming clean and sober just like you but it's been difficult. I stopped smoking weed and only drink on occasion, but I'm back to smoking cigarettes. Oh, and I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. It hasn't been easy to deal with, but the ups and downs aren't too bad. I have to take three different meds for it and I can't tell what difference they make, if any. I know you would shake your head at me for this, but I got a tattoo of our family crest on my chest. It's just a reminder of our roots. Anyway, I hope the afterlife is treating you well and even though you've done some things you might not be proud of you deserve a worthwhile reincarnation or a spot in heaven or whatever may be. I'll do my best to carry on tradition.
Love,
Your Grandson
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