Perfect Picture

As an artist, I am constantly striving to paint the perfect picture. Sometimes I get lost along the way and become so caught up in the picture of reality that I lose track of painting the perfect picture for myself. At this point in my life the picture of reality has become so good that I have lost track of what's truly important: my personal integrity. The perfect picture will never be realized if I don't stay true to myself. Everyone makes mistakes. Especially me. My problem is that the mistakes I make in reality reflect poorly on the process of painting the perfect picture. When I fall it can be difficult for me to forgive myself. It can also be difficult to admit guilt to those that have fallen with me. Because in my mind I let them down in the process of painting their own perfect picture.